I had to put a page in the internet as a school
assignment, thought It was gonna suck, but still I gotta
do it, or the teacher is gonna flunk my ass. I´ll start
by saying my name is Rosamaria
Arellano, I´m
17 years old (at least that´s what they tell me)
sometimes I don´t believe that coz I feel as old as an
old rag most of the time, or a 200 year old bitch...sorry...witch
(actually both).Anyway, I´m from Guatemala City...
yep, that little piece o´ country right below Mexico...
you can ask me about this place, and I will tell you that
I actually like it... and I would love it if it didnt
have any people in it... seriously, this would be the
perfect country coz nature here is something unbelievable,
of course there are places where PEOPLE have fucked up
the environment, as they do with many other things...If I
stop and think every country could be the perfect country
if it didn´t have humans, we fuck up everything, using
power and taking advantage of others, braking the law,
disrespecting nature....blah.... I´ll stop now,coz there
are actuallly some people who are doing really great
stuff about life, and to those kool souls my page is
dedicated.
What does one write in a personal page? heck.... well,
the other day my teacher was making us a bunch of ´clicheish´
questions, you know, who am I?, what do I want to
accomplish?, what do I wanna do with my life?, what is my
calling and am I struggling for what I wanna reach? I
found myself answering something that might help
accomplish the purpose of a personal page: getting
personal...*s*
F***, I know I´m about to get corny, but just work with
me. Well, I´m a sort of person, or something of the kind,
who likes to think and meditate, who deeply enjoys Arts,
specially Music. I´m interested in the causes, that is,
getting informed about the unknown, paranormal (society
actually fits in one of those categories, and so do my
parents...*wink*). I can identify myself, and It pleases
me, anything that has to do with mysticism, nature,
rustic stuff, and goth. I like what´s fair, I do not
live without honesty and sincerity. I care with all my
soul about my friends, people I choose based on what they
are, and not on what they look like or what they have (
materialy). I love my family... I don´t like
complications, yet I am very complex and a bit hard to
understand. I don´t go well with exaustment, or anything
that has to do with getting tired, I prefer tranquility (except
if we talk about concerts or the opposite sex).
I cannot define exactly what I want to accomplish, all I
can give is a general view that in my future I wanna be
happy in spirit, be with the people I love, never to work
unhappily only for money, but to do what I enjoy doing,
without changing because of what society might think. I
wanna find my calling and follow it. See the world (backpacker),
and the different cultures, and in the end (not the end,
but at least when im about 30) make a family, and live in
a place where society has a much more opened mind, and
where people are considerate with others. At the moment I
have to decide what I want to study at the University,
probably psychology, while I do that i would also like to
study Arts, Music, or literature (to be a writer). One of
my dreams for this next year is to live in an apartment
with a couple of roomees, meet new people, and loads of
new places. I need for my future to explore and explote
all of my capacities by using them. My calling? something
that has to do with helping others, and learning more
about people, the mind, and soul.... or another art. At
the moment I am sad and not proud to say that I´m not
fighting for what I wanna reach as much as i´d like to...Im
just coming out (don´t know if I will come out) of a
long period of confussion, lack of motivation, and
depression, obstacles for knowing exactly what I want.
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